Just…don’t ever ask Red to smile. Just don’t…
Red stood before the dreaded mirror in his room. He stared into his own black eyes, wide and blank as usual. He wished they were blue, like his gene donors. Like his cloned counterpart, #2. These wishes never even flickered across the man’s face. Most would consider such a thing to be a gift in a world where emotion is a nuisance, so distracting from the work that needed to be done.
Red didn’t. He considered it a curse. A curse never to be able to express his feelings properly. Even to himself. His eyes travelled over his large features, his square jaw and prominent nose. his flat line mouth and hanging brow. He disliked how he looked. Of course He didn’t fully comprehend ugliness, but if he did, he would definitely consider himself as such.
Then he thought of #2, who was still at the last base Red came from, probably happy in the company of his Pyro. He imagined his smile, his weird little laugh that sent a warm shiver through Red’s stomach. His bright shining eyes and delicate figure. Even though he knew he couldn’t see him right at this moment, Red felt an odd happiness overcome him. He began to imagine what it would be like if #2 felt the same way about him, accepted his affection and wanted to be close to him all the time. Hold him and kiss him.
and Love him.
Red felt so giddy in his trance like dreaming that He didn’t notice the smile in his reflection.
Let’s just say that she does not like it when Soldiers Rocket jump or when anything explodes anywhere near her. She is little and light, therefore if something blows up near her, she is either blown to bits or thrown somewhere with burns and bruises and it’s just not fun.
So I just had this…
lol! oh poor Berezi! Don’t worry, Red is a good battle tank to cling to ;u; this is adorable
“Conrad…said zhat..?” Alfons frowned at this revelation, narrowing his eyes.
Oh…he was going to have a rather lengthy talk with Conrad about THIS.
“Red…I need to explain some zhings about Conrad to you. Conrad…likes to tell lies und likes to upset people. I am nicht sure vhy but he does. He lied to you. Und I know zhat he attacked you first. If you had attacked him first zhen I vould be UPSET nicht angry. Zhat is two different emotions, all right?
“I could never hate you.”
The relief in Reds heart swelled so much He could barely contain it. He scooped up the smaller Blu medic into his lap and hugged him close, burying his face in the crook of his neck and letting out a long deep sigh that shivered with the underlying note of tears.
“I’m so stupid.” He muttered in a muffled voice against Alfons’ shoulder. “I didn’t want to hurt him…I couldn’t think.”
Alfons sat down beside his large friend as expected, looking up at him with an expectant look on his face. He frowned at the question and he immediately shook his head, rubbing his back. “Nein, of course night!” he said. “Vhy vould you zhink zhat?”
Red did not looking up. A small shiver ran through his body, so powerful in contrast to his intimidating size. He bit his lips, eyes unreadable. “I hurt him. I hurt Conrad. He said you would hate me…”
His hands shook and his trembling intensified.
“I’m sorry…please don’t hate me…”
“I heard zhat you met Conrad,” he said with a shake of his head. “Do you vant to talk about it?” he asked.
Red nodded silently and stepped aside to let Alfons in. He closed the door and plodded back to his bed, sitting down, knowing Alfons would take a seat beside him. He avoided looking into the mirror again, this time opting to stare down at his hands.
“Do you hate me?”
“Korbin helped me sneak in!” Alfons said with a soft giggle, smiling up at Red. “I vanted to see you! I have been so vorried about you, Red! Are you feeling all right?” he asked, looking up at him sadly, worry plainly written all over his face.
Red blinked. He didn’t feel very good, and since He had not yet grasped the concept of lying, He shook his head slowly as a clock pendulum, eyes never leaving Alfons’.
“No.”
“Sneaking into bases is HARD!” Alfons muttered to himself, flinching every time he heard a floor board creak when he took a step. The smaller Medic had been trying to get into contact with Red ever since he had heard about his altercation with Conrad but time was not his friend and he was forced to leave it for a few days until he was certain he was able to talk to the large man.
“Zhis better be zhe right door…” he muttered, rapping his knuckles slightly on the door, hoping to God a Soldier didn’t open it.
Red didn’t respond to the first knock, He was so lost in his own self destructive thoughts. When the second knock came, He flinched, sitting up and looking at the door. Nobody on the red base would have come to see him at this hour. He lifted his huge body from the small bed and headed for the door, clasping the knob with his big hands and cringing at the size comparison. When He opened it, he was inwardly surprised to see the small lovable figure of Alfons standing before him. Reds expression barely changed. “What are you doing in RED base?” He asked with a flat tone.
Red had sat in his rather small dorm that evening, forgetting his injuries and stewing over the prior events with the “delightful” Conrad. His bed groaned as he sat himself on it. There was a mirror on the wall He was facing, shining back his own reflection like a horrible reminder. His eyes moved over his oversized body, his big hunching shoulders, His dumb looking brow and staring emotionless eyes. compared to the other medics on his base, He didn’t fit. He was too large and slow with not a single fibre of finesse in his clumsy body. How could anyone, let alone #2 or Alfons, love such a great hulking beast of a man?
Even with all his mixed feelings, none of them even flickered on his face. He wished they would…then maybe he would feel slightly human.
He lay down on his creaky old bed and stared at the ceiling, unable to sleep.
my part of an art trade with owlymedics
Ohhh my god, I can’t get over How perfectly you drew him! His pose anbd expression are spot on. FFFF wow!! I adore this SO much, thank you so much! I will make your trade so awesome, its mums bday today so I’ll get onto it tonight, but fff wow I just love this so much D’: THANK YOU!!! *hug*
<3!!!
